The last exam of my university life is less than 24 hours away. And the motivation I have to study for it could not stoop any lower. With all the excitement of crossing the finish line, can you really blame me?
I’ve decided to document how I’m feeling right now, so here I am.
I remember taking the afternoon classes off from my high school to step onto my university campus for the first time ever. It was the day of registration. Nervous and barely smiling, I got my picture taken for my student ID card, picked my courses, and met some new people who were so different from my friends at high school. I was scared, to say the least. I grabbed a copy of the student-run newspaper and then read it all the way on the ride back home to get a sense of what people did at uni.
But soon I found my life revolving around this place. I can easily summarize what I did on a regular basis: attended classes, had group meetings, made presentations, did homework, and joined everyone in complaining about the workload (which really was unbearable at times). What made everything all the better though was that some of the people I met here greatly inspired me. Perhaps some even changed me in so many good ways – ways that I cannot point out and probably don’t even realize myself.
“So what do you wanna be when you grow up?” was my little brother’s question for me today. I couldn’t help but smile at him. There isn’t any more growing up of that kind left for me to do, silly! I’ve had to decide that a long time ago. I thought about how the oldest memory I have is that of my kindergarten class and about how school has been one of the few constants in my life. And now it won’t be there? I didn’t wanna admit that it’s over, and didn’t wanna disappoint The Lil Bro with a boring answer, so I said “I haven’t decided yet. May be an Astronaut or may be a Treasure Hunter!” The questions that followed were difficult to answer though 😀
With whatever choice I’ve made, it’s now time to enter the infamous “real world.” The place where you’re no longer just a student and need to face the realities of life. You don’t have classes to guide you through your weeks. And you can’t tell your mom to not assign you any chores because you have midterm exams and need to be left alone in your room (even though you know you’ll be on Facebook most of the time).
At the same time however I suddenly feel like I can now do whatever I want! I’m free from the shackles of those never-ending assignments and glad to be moving over to the more exciting and also the much more challenging phases of life. This is going to be the real learning part.
The feeling right now is definitely of happiness 🙂 So long, University! You’ll sometimes be missed…
And now to pass that one last exam